I stumbled on one of Vincent van Gogh’s letters to his brother.
“If I am worth something later, I am worth something now. For wheat is wheat, even if people think it is grass in the beginning.”
And that broke me.
There is a kind of fulfillment that comes from bringing an idea to life. Nothing matches that euphoria, not money or fame. What truly interests me is how to keep birthing new ideas, to stay on that roll, to remain in a flow state where creation feels endless.
Maybe my words were never bold enough.
Maybe my insecurities spoke louder.
Buried beneath the rubbles of our maybe’s
we left what could have been
for what was never meant to be. #betweenusalways
Sometimes I write to remember her.
Other times, I write to dream of someone I’ve never met.
Most days, i am in-between worlds
mourning what was,
aching for what never became.
#writer#writing#reader#reading#betweenusalways
If someday our paths do cross, or we ever find our way back to one another,
I hope this time the road runs both ways.
I hope you bleed for me
as much as I have bled for you. #betweenusalways
Being contrarian nowadays is actually simple:
- be physically fit, mentally stable, emotionally mature
- be happily married, enjoy spending time with your family
- have a circle of long-term, loyal, thoughtful friends
- have time to read slowly, write deeply, teach genuinely
She fell in love with an idea of me.
I fell in love with thoughts of her.
In the end, we both fell in love with something
It just wasn’t the real thing.
People often ask who I have in mind when I write.
To which I answer you.
You, before the heartbreak.
You, long after the heartaches.
The letter just never stayed the same.
Someone once asked me:
“You’re a writer
what does it feel like to be a poet?”
To be which I said,
“It feels like having a million words stuck in your head,
only a few make it to the heart
So you try to bleed them out on paper,
hoping it heals you…
or someone else.”