This is free advice from an expensive psychologist. If you’re an anxious person, do everything for fun. Go to a job interview for fun. Submit documents for fun. Start a blog for fun. Anxiety feeds on importance. Don’t make everything a matter of life and death.
Mercy is when you can't even explain how you're surviving, but you are. You don't have it all figured out, but each day, God sends help right when you need it. Hallelujah.