IT'S HARD to restrain myself from hurtig myself, it takes a lot of mental strength
"Oh don't think about it"
"Distract yourself"
YEAH IT WOULD BE SO MUCH EASY IF MY HEAD DOESN'T SAY SHIT ABOUT ME EVERY FUCKING TIME.
my brain is a gear that works 24/7
psychatrist cancelled the session, I'm crashing out
My best friend also cancelled back in Thursday, that was me reaching out for y'know at least to ease up my head.
I can't book again since today is my only free time for it, I'd have to survive another week.
maybe gun range.