Your job, your house, your friends, your spouse...they are what JOY comes THROUGH not where JOY comes FROM.
The Word of the Lord ...as illustrated by a juice box and a straw.
forgive yourself for not knowing better at the time.
forgive yourself for giving away your power.
forgive yourself for past behaviors.
forgive yourself for the survival patterns and traits you picked up while enduring trauma.
forgive yourself for being who you needed to be.