having cptsd is like having a stealth build like make no noise, be invisible, take up no space, blend in as well as possible, act sweet to lose all aggro and listen to everyone's footsteps and moods all the time to be able to perfectly avoid all danger
why can't I find that stupid fucking image of a girl in a leash in a tub getting fireball poured down her throat I swear to god it hits my TL twice a week at least search engines are so fucking. cooked this is a joke
unfortunately the idea of letting my partner get me drugged up so they can take advantage of me sounds hot as hell. theyd hold a bottle of wine to my mouth when my heads already spinning while calling me a good boy, and the idea of what theyd do while im out makes me feral.