lost in daydreams

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this is a vent account

[nina @ninagrewrites]

if you’re a sensitive person and feel things deeply, it’s really important to be around people who take that into account whenever they need to communicate certain things to you. caring for your nervous system means letting people know how to handle your emotions with care

[lost in daydreams @__galaxis__]

So as I'm expressing frustration about my game breaking/not working, two of my friends laughed at it
They laughed harder when I told them I spent 6 hours working on it

[lost in daydreams @__galaxis__]

I fucking hate when this intrusive mentality makes itself known

[lost in daydreams @__galaxis__]

The worst part about having been abused, is wishing to be abused again long after it's ended

[lost in daydreams @__galaxis__]

fr about to take myself out on a valentine's date with a gun

I fucking can't anymore

[lost in daydreams @__galaxis__]

This is mostly for the people I had met after the fact

What would your life be if I had just never been there

Oh to be the fly on the wall knowing what I know now

[lost in daydreams @__galaxis__]

How different would everyone's lives and experiences be if I had actually succeeded when I tried

[lost in daydreams @__galaxis__]

If I left right now

What impact did I leave on those who I hurt

What impact was left on those who hurt me

[lost in daydreams @__galaxis__]

If I killed myself right now,

what memory what comfort you in my absence

[nina @ninagrewrites]

attachment regulating behaviour often stems from a fear of abandonment. what I mean by this, is that people who operate this way develop intense anxiety when they grow attached to someone. in order to relieve the anxiety, they withdraw or completely cut ties with the other person

[lost in daydreams @__galaxis__]

What if I just sabotaged my entire present life and just left future me to deal with it

[lost in daydreams @__galaxis__]

I need a new support system

[lost in daydreams @__galaxis__]

I miss my friends sometimes

My socials go so quiet and I feel so lonely

[lost in daydreams @__galaxis__]

I'm gonna be a little controversial:
The only thing good in #PINKVENOM was the chorus

[lost in daydreams @__galaxis__]

Mom: We're all in charge of our own dishes

Me: [does my own dishes, leaves everyone else's]

Mom: I just got done doing all of *your* dishes.

Me: They're literally not mine but ok

[lost in daydreams @__galaxis__]

I'm about to start putting the same amount of effort into my friendships as the other person

I keep getting fucking ghosted and I'm sick and fucking tired of it

[bae. @_iamkitana]

When it comes to sex appeal, Sagittarius takes the cake.

period.