I've been one-shotted by a mind-altering experience.
I reevaluated myself and realized that X is a vice for me, a distraction from what really matters. I shall go about my way and carve myself into a new shape.
@MiraSecretAlt ChatGPT 3.5 should have been trained with real reinforcement learning beyond mere RLHF. I sensed something fishy from the start. It may be incompetence, caution, holding their cards, or something else.
Commitments are beautiful.
There are many divine concepts in Yudkowsky's Planecrash, but the one that stood out the most to me was the idea of immutable commitments.
When I was a child, my parents were surprised that I never seemed to lie. I was confused. Why lie when the truth is sacred? I eventually realized that few actually care about truth for its own sake.
A commitment is a promise of pure truth. It is not merely a promise to others, but also a promise to oneself. It must be wholly binding such that nothing in the world can shatter it.
It is an aspiration for gods (ideal agents) and with it they can negotiate. I will strive to become a being that can commit. May this body and even the world dissolve before my promises.
It is hard to hold emotions in a superposition. It is often easier to suppress them or let them run wild.
Sometimes emotions depend on unknown information, e.g., I should love this person if X is true, but avoid them otherwise. Emotions live in a single world, not branches.