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private account, somewhere to vent.
My dm's are always open if you need to talk x

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I've spent the last hour crying on my sister and it's made her upset and now I feel bad :(

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So now I've lost my care company in the evenings aswell, I can't take anymore 😭😭

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I guess this is why I have no friends 😭

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I really feel like no one wants me around

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I've broke down twice on my carers today and now I've had a call saying they're concerned about me and i don't even know what to do or say to them

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I just want to stop crying now please

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Since I lost mum and then dad, my fear of people leaving has got so much worse, I hate being on my own so much

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I literally want to hurt myself for being so fucking shit

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I FUCKING HATE MYSELF.

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I knew I should have said nothing, this is why I always Bury how I feel 😭😭

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I tried so hard to not be bother by it but I'm really really upset

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I really hate this. I hate how things actually mean something to me

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I literally feel like I'm so easy to replace and it's really upset me, I haven't slept, I spent hours crying and even now I keep crying

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I thought my days of SH were over but here we are

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Am I that fucking easy to just leave?? 😭😭😭😭😭

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I'm in the head space where I feel like just taking all these pills, idk what they'll to but atm, idc

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I swear we are closer than this, I won't give up 🥺🥺

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I can't lose anyone else

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I'm not one to give up on someone when they mean alot to me.. I won't, even though this is really hurting me

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How the fuck do I hide this from my carers