Even when I don’t have strength to make anti Tinubu tweets I RT everyone I see.
Amplifying the cancer that this Tinubu led government is, is essential to our survival as a people.
Thats my dads suicide letter tattoo'd on my chest in reverse so I can read it in the mirror. He hung himself from a shower head like the one behind me. There was a time when I had to cover the mirrors in my bathroom because id see him in the reflection.
If youre new to my page you might have seen people talking about how happy they are with how different my life is from just a year ago
Feb 4th is the anniversary of my dad's suicide
Feb 22nd is my sisters
And Jan 1st was the day my mom died
My only relationship ive had as an adult cheated and got pregnant then left me 2 weeks after my mom died, 2 weeks before my dads anniversary
I tried to kill myself 8 months later
Not something new to me
I was NINE years old the first time I tried to kill myself
Children shouldnt even be able to conceptualize that at that age
I actually want to be alive, and this is the first time in my entire life that ive written that before
Its not just that I want to be here for my cats so I stick around. There is part of me right now that just truly wants to be alive and ive never felt like this before
Worst case scenario confirmed, i have permanent nerve damage and it may be a very long time before i can walk again if i do at all. The pain is beyond words. Its like being burned, cut, and electrocuted at the same time and i cant even move my toes. I feel incredibly defeated.