only reason i tweak about a nígga is cause im already barely interested in níggas to begin with.. so for a mf to come waste my time is why ima crash everytime cause you could of left me tf alone DUMB BTCH
Never trust a ngga who expect loyalty while moving shady. Soon as you question the weird energy, hidden phones, random disappearances, or disrespect, now you “insecure.” Nah ngga… I’m responding to YOUR behavior. Stop blaming my reaction for what YOUR actions created.
I struggle with forgiveness, for real. I’ll let things slide & act cool for a while, but then my mind starts replaying everything. Before I know it, I’m mad all over again & don’t even wanna be around you. It hurts, cause I’m the type to ride hard for the people I love. My loyalty runs deep, sometimes too deep. But it’s crazy how your own thoughts can keep you stuck, replaying the pain instead of releasing it. & the whole time, I’m just sitting there thinking, “Why would you even do me like that?”
People always say, “you deserve better.” But sometimes… it’s not even about wanting someone new. Sometimes, you just wanted that person to do better. You weren’t asking for perfection. You weren’t asking for anything unrealistic. You just wanted effort. To feel like you mattered enough for them to try. Enough for them to care about the things that hurt you. You weren’t looking to replace them. You were hoping they’d grow with you. That they’d listen instead of dismissing you. That they’d notice the distance forming… and care enough to fix it. Not because you forced it— but because they didn’t want to lose you. You didn’t want to change who they were. You just wanted them to want to be better for the relationship. To protect what you both had. To fight for it the same way you were. But instead… they let it fall apart. And that’s the part that stays with people. Not because they needed someone “better”… but because they believed that person could be better— and they were willing to stay long enough to see it. And sometimes… that’s what makes it hurt the most. Because they didn’t want someone else. They just wanted the person they loved to show up differently.