i don't know how to explain what i'm feeling right now. all i can say is that it hurts, everything hurts. my heart feels so heavy that all i wanted is cry. i want to rest but i don't know what rest i'll take.
no one talks about how exhausting it is to be observant. how u break your own heart a little every day from the tiny details u involuntarily pick up, and u just wanna tell yourself that none of it is real, but it's also u who's telling u that it is. so how do u trust yourself?