You’re getting bogged down by fear and snap out of it, knowing that your thoughts and fears aren’t truth and you can choose to change your mind and change your thoughts. Yes this may take work but you have already worked hard at this and you will see this pay off
I’ve done it all—lessening work, doing sports, travelling more, focusing on myself—yet, I’m still the same old anxious person, more often even more anxious than before. So dont tell me it’s just a state of mind.
cancer moons: ace of cups / You write sonnets about the slight inflection shift of the people you love, detailing every freckle on their body like a map. You build elaborate shrines out of your devotion to worship at their altar, faithfully, a loyal friend or lover that simply is present in your relationships with the notion of what you can do or who you can be - to make them shine brighter. But by doing so, the earnestness can sometimes twist in the pit of your stomach and sour like milk left out for too long. There's a bravery and beauty to loving people or things, despite their lack of reciprocation or ability to match your devotion. But, this can also breed resentment - when the harsh gutting of the knife boils down to: nobody asked you to overextend yourself just to prove you love them. Maybe instead, it's time to build shrines and write sonnets for yourself.