MANNNN FUCJ EVERYONE ELSE, I ONLY NEED BIG DADDY!! BIT DADDY BEING MEEEE!!! I’M LITERALLY A GOD BRO, IF I WANTED PPL TO BEND AT MY WILL I’D FUCKING DO ITTTTT
Everybody has given up on me and I’m not 100% sure how to feel about it.
On one hand, I understand, I have trouble accepting the nice words people give me but at the same time they all feel like lies.
On another hand, I wish they’d try a little harder. Idk Maybe I’m just selfish!
Had a suicidal meltdown for 4+ hours
Realized people are giving up on me
Mutilated both of my thighs with my new blade
Almost attempted
Now I’m desperate and clingy for my boyfriend who’s busy..
#fairs#watdatmean
I’m so desperate for his love, I’m scared he finds it annoying.. I wanna say I love you all the time but I’m scared he’ll get annoyed and stop saying it back… I hate being a mentally ill boyfriend kmfg
I hate these stupid blades, they’re so sharp and cut good and clean but fuck they hurt, my legs are BURNING, I wanna cry so badly, it hurts so bad I can’t even sleep dude holy shit
If it had to be anybody who said it tho it just HAD to be him? It doesn’t make sense. It really doesn’t and it’s not fair. I’d remember him, I’d remember ALL OF THEM but they can’t reciprocate that? I don’t care if they don’t remember, but him? I hate it so much I hate Myself
People say they love, they say they’d do anything for me yet they all know they’ll forget me if I died. A said it P said it I said it, even Y said it. Even he said it. I mean, I stay so they won’t be sad but I mean, would they even be sad? Theyre contradicting themselves.
You don’t need to lie to me, fuck you, fuck I hate everybody, what’s genuinely the point of me being alive?? You’d forget about me, even though you all say you love me you’d just forget me. What’s the point of talking to anybody anymore if they won’t care if I live or die?? Crazy
Maybe I’m really not as important as I wish I was, maybe I am going to be forgotten.
I’m such a small unimportant part of your life so you’ll forget me? Not one moment after I die will you think “hey I remember that guy” or “hey I kinda miss him” no because I’m so unimportant