forehead

all waves eventually pass 🌊

[forehead @adrian_d0nes]

In the end it was all nothing. It was nothing to all of you, so, maybe, perhaps, it have to be nothing for me, too. Now, nothing matters. Nothing is worth to pursue. Just nothing.

[forehead @adrian_d0nes]

I haven't looked away to some life I worked so hard to build. I never would. I mean, I WOULD HAVE NEVER DONE THAT SHIT TO ALL OF YOU.

[forehead @adrian_d0nes]

In case it's comfortable now. I have not forget. never. Morning, noon, afternoon, evening, heck, even late nights and pulling an all nighter. It exhaust the shit out me to finally get my rhythm and tempo back. You are what you did, you all are.

[forehead @adrian_d0nes]

pick my struggles? sure. I was distant, check. I created boundaries, check. All good. Then, invaded me multiple times (been years). Well, shit. Oh, they mean well, BS, look at their behavior now. Just tolerate it 💅🏻

[forehead @adrian_d0nes]

It's very telling, it was never for me. I sat there and just picked without thinking.

[forehead @adrian_d0nes]

At the moment, I don't have it in me.

[forehead @adrian_d0nes]

There's a high relief of telling someone that you appreciate them and that you are grateful to know them because they made your life better.

[forehead @adrian_d0nes]

and to those of you, good job. You got me damaged so well beyond repair. You get to live however you want, maybe happier, noble warriors.

[forehead @adrian_d0nes]

I didn't have to search for such
If I had not lost a lot 🏠

[forehead @adrian_d0nes]

I [have been] am disappointed in me as much as all of you are. Because I was this close to (actually) be someone I could call me (finally).

[forehead @adrian_d0nes]

@itswords_ I don't want the noise in this house. I don't want to come home.

[forehead @adrian_d0nes]

did I forget you told me I was idealistic.

[forehead @adrian_d0nes]

what's it like, to live normal?

[forehead @adrian_d0nes]

It seems altogether.
We're getting there
(somehow, someday)

[forehead @adrian_d0nes]

as long as there is life,
there is hope *niyakap*

[forehead @adrian_d0nes]

Then nag-pop up ig memories na it's 1D's anniv. today. Hayyyy

[forehead @adrian_d0nes]

Pardon me, I'm not caffeinated but it's another. 22 is weird, it'll probably take long.

[forehead @adrian_d0nes]

Even now that I was this close. Back out. This isn't it, this is the problem. I am. Why is it so hard to get it, why am I so lost, why does it (always) seem not for me?

[forehead @adrian_d0nes]

So tell me, that it's wrong to cling to a person who see right through me when I couldn't when you of all people couldn't.

[forehead @adrian_d0nes]

Sobrang bihira ng gan'on. Like at least being near with one person, everything's better. 'Yun 'yon eh, pero I'm not okay, kaya hindi pwede.