hating children and babies doesnโt make you edgy or cool it just kinda makes you a weird as fuck asshole. dehumanizing the most vulnerable population on earth and thinking they should be excluded from society is not the quirky take you think it is
the best thing you can do for yourself is actively increase your surface area for luck to hit you. go outside, try new cafes, museums, events, take a new route home, speak to people, ask questions, side quest. the more you do, the more serendipity and synchronicity will find you.