An armoured, dissociated world is exactly the world that allows all of this trauma to continue. A sensitive world, FULLY aware of how painful it is to be human will regard emotions as sacred, and will prevent trauma from repeating itself.
People are afraid to be sensitive to pain because this world can be such an insensitive, traumatic place. No one wants their vulnerability to be met with harshness.
Fully processing & healing these experiences requires emotional vulnerability to integrate the trauma, leading to MORE sensitivity...this is exactly what dissociation is helping you avoid.
The lesson is: If you’re subconsciously avoiding something, chances are you’ve created an addiction that helps you do it. Monitor your habits and keep an eye out for this pattern while on your path.
The people you thought were your enemies will become your greatest teachers, and the worst days of your life will be the most important...it’s truly amazing what a healed heart will reveal.
With forgiveness, don’t depend on others to put the missing puzzle pieces together and fix your broken heart. Put all the pieces together that you can, make peace with having half the image, and then you’ll be surprised at all the ways the full picture will appear.