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A shameful alt account for those thoughts that must be sealed away

[SecretAlt @altaccount39]

I don't think I'll ever, ever be okay with the fact that I was circumcised. It's kind of impossible to cope with because it affects me every day of my life. My penis is always going to be missing its foreskin

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honestly I can't even imagine what it would be like to have a foreskin. Which is sad. I'm supposed to have one, and I was born with one, but I'll never even know what it feels like.

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@CheriTips001 I wonder what they used on me. I was a baby so I don't remember

[SecretAlt @altaccount39]

coworker asked me if I was circumcised today. First time it's ever come up in casual conversation

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@CheriTips001 Mine isn't small but it is cut

[SecretAlt @altaccount39]

Additionally, being the only one who was cut in my family (neither my dad nor anyone on his OR my mom's side were circumcised. And we aren't religious) added to that. And learning that in my state it isn't even covered by insurance so my parents payed money to circ me.

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I think my trauma from circumcision comes not from the procedure itself (as much as I hate this talking point, it's true: I don't remember it), but from finding out what was done to me later.

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@wholetruthblog Explain what it is then

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@wholetruthblog Your "message" is "circumcised people don't deserve love", there's nothing to "get" you're just evil and your stupidity is actively harmful.
It's also statistically very unlikely that my iq is lower than yours considering that I'm in the 99th percentile but sure

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Someday I am going to kms and it will be because I am circumcised

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@Anonymous_Adric @batou_store Mistranslation. 包茎 actually means "phimotic" but Grok has cultural bias

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@JewishGirly Don't worry about that. I actually like talking about it

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I learned recently that apparently the tip of the penis is supposed to be warm at all times. Mine is always cold to the touch. I wonder if this is related to circumcision.

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It's like a visceral fear, or maybe some kind of PTSD. But I have also Pavlov'd myself into finding that incredibly uncomfortable feeling to be arousing.

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I get a sinking, almost scared feeling whenever I randomly encounter the topic of circumcision without searching for it. I hope someday a woman asks me randomly if I'm circumcised, or comments about it when I show her my dick without me bringing it up first.

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@gaudetgoodie96 Yes but I have been told I don't because "that can't happen"

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They cut off part of my penis when I was a baby and I can never, ever, ever be whole. I have a big ugly scar that emphasizes the fact that I'm missing something, and that scar hurts randomly throughout every day

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@JewishGirly The part of the scar where the skin is messed up hurts so I wish I didn't have it. Visually I don't feel strongly one way or another though