i wanna scream, smash things and cry…but that won’t change anything. so i go about my day with the biggest smile on my face, enough to mask all my unprocessed feelings, making all my patients wonder what i’m so damn happy about
I be hella delirious on the last leg of my 12 hour shifts. I’m like 10,000% full go customer service mode with the shrilly voice and laughing 99% during the session when i’m hella dying inside 💀
today’s loss was a hard one. as a geriatric therapist, sometimes you get to send people back home…and sometimes you have to send them back home with god.
the beautiful angel god took home this morning is close to my heart. she’s been my patient for a few months now and though i’m sad that she’ll no longer be part of my days, it’s also bittersweet to me that my angel has found her wings.
the struggle & burnout be hella real 🫠 i have no idea how there are people living this way but i definitely can’t 😂 love what i do…to an extent. but i’m not about to sacrifice my own occupational balance for someone else’s.
also, what’s crazier is that bitch who wrote a declamation piece for me during my first competition. it was honestly so sick and twisted like wtf was wrong with her? and wtf was wrong with my school and teachers to let me go through with that piece 😂
anddd that’s a wrap🥺 rollercoaster of emotions for the past few weeks for me. i always develop unhealthy attachments to people and things that i’ve got going good in my life 😭 i know i’ll recover from this but it’s gonna suck for a while 😭
but spoiler alert: he cheats, and now he’s with the lord. Jk. Still my favorite vow though even though it didn’t have a happy ending. What use do you have for beautiful words that a man utters but does not mean 💀
i am such a crier dude 😭 i be here crying my eyes out watching a random video of some stranger having infertility issues finally get pregnant like i actually know them or the struggle 😭😭😭
same with strangers’ weddings and esp the vows 😭 my absolute favorite one that stays with me to this day is when the groom tells the bride, “I am yours until the day He calls me back.” and y’alllll we love a man who loves god okkk