Alice in Ana-land

I can hardly stand myself, so what am I to you? disordered thinking and other randomness lives here. #edX #edtwt

[Alice in Ana-land @AnasPoison1]

GW1 65kg
GW2 58kg
GW3 50kg
UGW 45kg

Yes, I’m currently a fattie 😭😭😭

[Alice in Ana-land @AnasPoison1]

When you wake up with a sad song in your head and randomly start crying bc of your childhood trauma 7am hits different. #mood #sad

[Alice in Ana-land @AnasPoison1]

Had fries for dinner, now I won’t eat anything for 14 hours. I will only drink water. Hoping I won’t have gained when I weigh myself tomorrow.

[Alice in Ana-land @AnasPoison1]

Also having schizophrenia, bipolar, BPD, an ED, any other mental illness or personal struggle doesn’t make you stupid, childish, deficient or less deserving in some way. I think medical professionals in particular need to understand that.

[Alice in Ana-land @AnasPoison1]

What I’m saying is you can be highly intelligent and struggle severely with mental illness. Having high intelligence doesn’t make your suffering any less valid than anyone else. I just wish people would understand that.

[Alice in Ana-land @AnasPoison1]

Often people don’t seem to realise that you can be extremely smart and capable of studying or grasping concepts most ‘normal’ people struggle to understand but have crippling anxiety and mental health issues and are unable to leave the house, have a job and interact with people.

[Alice in Ana-land @AnasPoison1]

My mental illness and my intelligence aren’t mutually exclusive. (If anything being highly intelligent makes it worse, but that’s a whole different thing I won’t get into right now.)

[Alice in Ana-land @AnasPoison1]

I would give up everything I own and all the money I have to go back to my childhood and spend one more day with my grandmother. All I have now are memories but that’s better than nothing.

[Alice in Ana-land @AnasPoison1]

Thinking of my childhood before age 10, I felt so happy, carefree and loved. Knowing I’ll never have that feeling again makes me just feel empty. And alone.

[☾ 𝓛𝓾𝓬𝓲 ☽ @PerfctlyDsturbd]

I fixed lol

[Alice in Ana-land @AnasPoison1]

I just don’t know how i managed to gain 7 kgs, I swore I would never gain again once I reached my gw but I just kept gaining 😭💔

[Alice in Ana-land @AnasPoison1]

I’ve kind of given up trying to be skinny, what I’m focused on now is not gaining any more weight but I fail at that too 😫

[Alice in Ana-land @AnasPoison1]

I want to buy some Lululemon leggings but I don’t know what size I am 😐 I guess will just have to guess the size and sell them if they don’t fit. Or just not buy them, that’s an option too.

[Alice in Ana-land @AnasPoison1]

My Facebook feed isn’t working so I guess I’ll hang out here instead 😅

[Hi im Paris 🫠 @parispoptart]

People will be like “end the stigma around mental illness” but still judge you if you’re unemployed or single or not completely self-sufficient or healthy or perfectly groomed or still live with parents and don’t see the hypocrisy in that whatsoever

[Alice in Ana-land @AnasPoison1]

“I want to pull away when the dream dies, the pain sets in and I don’t cry, I only feel gravity and wonder why.”

[𝓶 𝓪 𝓭 𝓮 𝓵 𝔂 𝓷 @madbpd]

Put your hands up if you’ve ever been personally victimised by a white male psychiatrist