Try to visit the hospital from time to time. You won't nag or question God about the things you don't have but will be grateful for what you have.
You will learn to appreciate life and your perception abt life will be different.
A lot of the people we go out of our ways to please cant give half the sacrifice we paid for them.
Rather, they cause you pain, sleepless night and trauma. They sometimes make you question your existence
"To whom much is given, much is expected".
Pay attention!!