I want a home, I want to host, I want to gather, I want to create peace for myself and others, I want to be the space, be the womb, be the kitchen, be the seed, the water, the garden, the moon
There’s absolutely nothing more pleasing than watching yourself do the things you said you’d do. I really value honoring the promises I’ve made to myself.
i have to treat my body better, not to attract a lover or an audience, but because my body is a conduit for the entire life experience. this body is a container for all possible consciousness. it is my job to live a life that this enhanced vessel can sustain with ease and joy .
years ago, i came across a quote “if you want people to care, you need to care first” it has stayed with me ever since. i think we need to be kind without expecting anything, because sometimes the reciprocity comes much later, when you least expect it. (it all comes back around).
art has saved me more times than i can count. sometimes it was paint. sometimes it was music. sometimes it was words. sometimes it was movement. every version of it reached for my hand when the world felt too heavy. when i couldn’t find a way home, it became one
when kafka said "all the love in the world is useless when there is total lack of understanding" and when richard siken said “if you love me, you don’t love me in a way I understand.”
i have to treat my body better, not to attract a lover or an audience, but because my body is a conduit for the entire life experience. this body is a container for all possible consciousness. it is my job to live a life that this enhanced vessel can sustain with ease and joy .
Waiting is a thief. It steals your time. Even when you have your forever love, you are waiting for them to get off of work, waiting for them to wake up on Saturday, waiting for them to get out of the shower. They will have to clean the guest room for your parents visit, walk the dog, exercise. It is all of it you just waiting for their attention.
This is life: learning how to deal with the minutes that are unsatisfactory. It will always be imperfect and you will always want more. Not because you are greedy but because you have a big, strong imagination.
Do something cool, even while you are waiting. Fill the imperfect minutes in a way you decide.