raisins

in the mental hospital

[raisins @applegybsr]

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‧₊˚ | he/him 16

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[raisins @applegybsr]

I'm going in with adults men at my ungrown ass age

[raisins @applegybsr]

I'm going to inpatient I lied

[˖𓍢 bυɳι ִֶָ𓂃˖ ִֶָ࿐˙ ִֶָ† @Rinnlzxseklc]

How parents feel after yelling at their already suicidal child

[raisins @applegybsr]

Lies lies lies they aren't going to take meeee i don't get helpppp i get to stay like thisss back to priv i fucking hate being alive I'm going to kill my self

[raisins @applegybsr]

It seems like I'm going back to the mental hospital which means my parents will be taking my phone so might as well unpriv since they will look through it all anyway

[raisins @applegybsr]

It seems like I'm going back to the mental hospital which means my parents will be taking my phone so might as well unpriv since they will look through it all anyway

[raisins @applegybsr]

I'm going back to the mental hospital I can't fucking take this

[raisins @applegybsr]

I need to go back to inpatient

[raisins @applegybsr]

I want to die I'm going to killl myself soon I can't take it anymore I can't do it I'm so fucking tired of it all I have no one to go to anymore I hate it I shouldnt have stopped my attempt I will be successful on my next one

[raisins @applegybsr]

I carried around a bullet in my pocket for weeks after I got the chance to steal one but I thought I was better I thought everything was okay I threw it away and now I can't even shoot myself

[raisins @applegybsr]

I hope I'll be able to do it soon I can't go on

[raisins @applegybsr]

I want too see blood pouring out of my wrists again I want to feel my fingers become numb and my hands start to go cold as I'm dying

[raisins @applegybsr]

When I'm dead they will make it about them too

[raisins @applegybsr]

I have a camera in my room I have a camera in the kitchen I have a camera in the living room I have a camera in the bathroom I'm never not being watched I'm tired of it I just want to be dead

[raisins @applegybsr]

I can't get out of bed I can't do anything I'm so tired

[raisins @applegybsr]

My dad was right i am a burden

[raisins @applegybsr]

I had a dream of her again I knew it was a dream but I was so happy to see her smile again

[raisins @applegybsr]

I'm so tired of it all I want to rot away

[raisins @applegybsr]

I just want it to be over I'm so tired

[raisins @applegybsr]

I'm so tired I just want to be dead I reassure everyone that I'm not but all I've thought about for weeks has been killing myself and I think it won't go away until I really do

[raisins @applegybsr]

I can't even cry anymore I try and try and try to distract myself but I'm giving up on it I'm more miserable now than ever I've overdosed for less I wish she would push me into committing I just need one push anyone please