@uvray_deceased Oh wow, I grew up with a Grimms Compendium too. And Hans Kristian Anderson. Great stories for teaching me about life, death, Heaven, Hell. I was a deep child and nobody giving me any answers. So books were great.
If you can only heal / cure yourself by doing something then you do something and every time it creates more disassociating and self blame guilt anger misery afterwards .... What's the cure for this? Genuinely looking for advice
@smacula I want to be the 51 year old I am not the desolate child and teen I was. But there I am at a gig surrounded by happy people and I think oh shit I am still not cured.
@smacula I don't feel like it's okay that I go to gigs and disassociate. But I only come slap bang up against this thing when I go to gigs. It doesn't impinge of the rest of my life. I just want to be normal. Unproblematic fun. Not overthinking why things are not fun.
@smacula People say this to me. But ... If your parents manage to duff your front teeth out wouldn't you want to have decent teeth to smile like everyone else? It's an example and it did also actually happen to me.
@Jenny_1884 If I can't do anything about it myself I don't worry a jot about other people's sex lives and family numbers. Ain't none of my business. Life is one long song.
@Jenny_1884 As a person who suffers from anxiety I've learnt very well to not get anxious about stuff I can do nothing about. Thus I don't twitch my curtains looking at neighbours wondering if they're breeding kids they can't afford.