you ever become so emotionally drained that even replying to people who genuinely care about you starts feeling difficult because your mind is just exhausted from carrying too much for too long
I finally understood that when a person doesn’t want you anymore they will repeat the same things which you don’t like and hurt you until you leave them.
i can always tell when someone likes me more as an accessory vs an actual person bc the moment i go off script it’s a problem. i’m not being valued for my authenticity only my ability to placate you.
i’m not bitter that i am always the last one standing. i would never want anyone to be alone like that. i am not bitter that i take on more than i can bear just to be left at the slightest inconvenience. i would never have it any other way.