nic ❦

24 mdni // high sw/cw

[nic ❦ @astroniccc]

omg happy 11/11 <3

[nic ❦ @astroniccc]

oh the lineup is sooooo good

[nic ❦ @astroniccc]

why twitter exposing all my moots that got their x money LMFAO

[🥤finnley @autismAnalysis]

Having abusive parents that chill out later in life is so weird because they just pretend they didnt do that

[nic ❦ @astroniccc]

i miss mr. bitches

[nic ❦ @astroniccc]

i wanna switch my septum jewelry already to a bigger one but i still have to wait a few weeks

[nic ❦ @astroniccc]

like physically i could feel like shit and then in my head i hear the doctors words repeat “we couldn’t find anything wrong with you everything is normal and you seem perfectly healthy” so then my brain immediately switches to GET WORSE GET WORSE GET WORSE GET WORSE GET WORSE GET

[nic ❦ @astroniccc]

this sounds stupid but ever since the last time i had to go to the er and they did all those tests and scans on me and told me i was perfectly fine and everything’s normal it’s just become fuel for me to purge bc in my head realisticallyyyy im fine despite how i feel physically

[nic ❦ @astroniccc]

need to get some shit done before i leave out of town again to the hospital and i just can’t get out of bed lol all i did was eat breakfast and purge it which was stupid asf and now i’m being lazy ugghhhhh

[nic ❦ @astroniccc]

@reidrexia i did end up eating a bit later on and felt sm better, thank u lovely <3

[nic ❦ @astroniccc]

yaaaa i think the b/p earlier fucked me up bc my stomach is hurting everytime i breathe in. like it hurtssssss

[anh* @Lostmypieces_]

anxiety had me googling shit like “how to buy food from the hot bar at Whole Foods”

[nic ❦ @astroniccc]

@dinocoffeequeen because it unfortunately becomes like an addiction to ur brain🫩 i go thru the same thing i know ill feel like shit after and always regret it but the urge is always there

[blaqsheep @Blaq_meeh]

I hate being ignored that shit make me wanna shoot somebody

[nic ❦ @astroniccc]

okay nvm we might b hanging out soon apparently idk he could flake on me again.. i texted him saying congrats on finally getting out of that place bc that manager was EVIL bro she’s the reason i quit years ago it was literally hell there lmao but i didn’t know it was his last day

[nic ❦ @astroniccc]

my friend is quitting his job so i won’t be seeing him on my work breaks anymore :( saw him there today for the last time we talked for a bit before he went in for his shift. don’t know when i’ll see him again n that makes me sad

[nic ❦ @astroniccc]

i feel like a chump wearing my hoodie in 73° weather rn bc i’m so cold when i was just in 40° weather last week LOL

[nic ❦ @astroniccc]

@VioletSmiling3 yeah it’s quite unfortunate🥲 thank u🫶🏽

[nic ❦ @astroniccc]

going to the hospital because my other tia got really bad again :(

[nic ❦ @astroniccc]

my chest hurts and i feel nauseous but i can’t tell if it’s bc im overwhelmingly sad and anxious rn or from b/ping earlier lol

[nic ❦ @astroniccc]

i feeeeeeel sad

[♠ @yaristhat_]

who's up considering isolation and detachment