I'm falling apart, and starting to feel s-dal, and it's been so long since I felt like that. It's probably the hormones that are making my situation worse but I just feel like a failure with /everything/.
I've have been so much better if my parents had aborted me! But no, abortion wasn't an option, not even divorce, so we just had to live in hell for our whole lives!
Babies don't want to be aborted.
Babies don't want to be aborted.
Babies don't want to be aborted.
Babies don't want to be aborted.
Babies don't want to be aborted.
Babies don't want to be aborted.
Babies don't want to be aborted.
Babies don't want to be aborted.
Imagine getting angry at someone and "insulting" them by calling them deaf bc they couldn't hear you.
My sister invited me to this trip to help with my depression but she has made me cry more times than what I cry on the regular when I'm on my own.
So, I'm only here tp say, I stayed at a friends house the whole week. She definitely has disordered eating, and now I'm triggered. Maybe I'll be back on my bs or not, oops.
Yesterday went to the store with my family and the cashier called me sr multiple times, and I wanted to scream out of excitement but my sister was right beside me, I think I looked angry, and the person apologized bc they need ID, YOURE NOT WRONG I'M STILL IN THE CLOSET LOL
FUUUUUUUCK I've been struggling to find a job, and I'm feeling so fucking depressed. I was in a process but they ended it saying I didn't complete a test, which I did, and now someone asks me why didn't I join the zoom interview??? Fix your fucking system omg