The accusation that I am antisemitic is appalling and fundamentally dishonest. Criticizing the actions of the Israeli prime minister, a military technology contract, or the executives who supply it is not the same as criticizing Jewish people. This critical and necessary dialogue is then dishonestly framed as being anti-Israel. To be clear, my views come from my own political convictions and should never be interpreted as hostility toward Jewish people, for whom I have deep love and respect. Everything I know about acting, activism, and humanism has been profoundly shaped by the Jewish friends, colleagues, and loved ones who have been integral and family throughout every point of my life.
This merger has real consequences for real people, and for the entire country. Scrutinizing the Ellisons, including Oracle’s business built on data, surveillance technology and government contracts, and the serious threat to editorial freedom and the loss of a livelihood for thousands of families, is fair and necessary. The $111 billion deal would hand one family control over CNN, HBO and Warner Bros., backed in part by foreign money whose influence on editorial decisions has never been fully explained to the public.
Lawmakers on both sides of the aisle have called for serious national security review, and regulators still haven’t given the public a real answer. Until they do, the merger shouldn’t move forward. Now is the time to dive boldly into all these issues, not step back or concede.
I’ve been reflecting a lot on what trans and nonbinary folk experience in the esports community. I hope this message isn’t too late, given recent events.
There are many issues I could talk about, but I just want to speak on one: there must be an unspoken grief in being trans and seeing your idols vilify you.
I grew up watching CS:GO. My favorite team was Luminosity after Cluj-Napoca in 2015. I remember rushing home from school to scour twitch chats and copy my favorite players’ settings. I cheered when C9 won the Boston Major. And of course I watched all of the Rank S highlights and can still quote the funniest clips from heart, even 11 years later (jeez im old).
Esports was an escape for me, as I’m sure it is for so many of us. Yet, because I am a woman, I watched with dread as my escape was bastardized over the years by influential figures ostracizing women. I saw the same people I looked up to point and laugh and say people like me were inferior, that we could never do what they do, that we don’t belong in esports, that trans women weren’t my friends and were out to get me.
That anguish and betrayal I felt from a community I poured years of my life into is exactly what trans women and nonbinary folk experience times ten. They are esports fans just like anyone else. They’re here as an escape just like anyone else. They don’t want to be treated differently from anyone else. All they want is the same respect you give any other human being.
After asking for something so simple, so basic, they experience far more hate and rejection at the hands of the very people they look up to. All while already living life constantly vilified and questioned. It’s a shame we’ve allowed this radioactive environment to fester here.
To my peers: I promise you some of your biggest fans HAVE BEEN trans and nonbinary folk. Gaming is incredibly diverse, and if you’ve played in front of a crowd, you know this already. They tell others how good you are. They try to copy how you play. They make beautiful art of you and your teams. They wake up early or stay up late to watch your games. They celebrate your successes and feel for your failures. They’re just like any of your supporters.
Thank you to those who know this already. I promise your acceptance doesn’t go unnoticed.
For those who don’t: It’s an incredible opportunity and gift to be someone’s escape in this world. What a waste to squander it.
And to the trans and nonbinary folk reading this: you are welcome here. Existence is resistance. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise.
We cannot consider #AI to be morally neutral. In reality, every technical tool embodies choices and priorities through what it measures, ignores, and optimizes, and how it classifies people and situations. Ethical discernment cannot be limited to asking whether we are using a system for good or bad purposes. It must also examine how that system is designed and what vision of the human person and society is embedded in the data and models that guide it. #MagnificaHumanitas
sorry i promised a longer tweet and its been a minute, had a lot going on. i really appreciate all of the kind words and everyone who reached out i wish i couldve replied to all of u but uhhhh my track record with the whole replying to ppl thing already isnt so great and me and my family have been going thru a lot recently.
just around when i was retiring, i learned that id lost my brother. didnt rly wanna talk about it on socials cuz honestly i figured the public outpour of sympathy would prolly do more harm than good for me but im in a better place in terms of sharing now and i feel its my obligatory duty to try and reach the people stuck in the 16 hour ranked -> nap -> repeat cycle. if thats u im begging u to take a minute to go hug the people u care about in ur life and tell them how much they mean to u, its so easy to watch years slip away to the grind without ever looking around and remembering wat its all for. i feel like all i do is speak in dumb cliches lately but the older i get the more i realize theyre all cliches for a reason.
if the 16 hour ranked people are still reading, u might wanna read a couple more lines. it might seem obvious but going thru this really only made it more clear to me that this shit isnt for me and retiring was the right decision, i dont think ill ever want to compete in esports ever again. if thats the only reason u followed this account and u wanna dip thats chill and understandable.
i hoped to have more of a concrete answer in terms of what i want to do going forward for u guys by now but uhh with everything i aint rly got there yet. ive lowkey just been having fun learning new things, writing a bit, most of my time lately been going towards learning flstudio. idk. its been really nice to pursue hobbies that actually bring me joy and give me good thoughts and dont require me to abuse drugs and neglect my health!! its so much easier than u think to just try new stuff and have fun and i dont rly know abt all this yet but i feel like the voice in ur head that keeps going "u suck at this and u need to be the fucking greatest like yesterday" probably gets quieter the more u pursue things for love and passion. ill get back to u on that tho.
i have lost my train of thought. iunno i think im just gonna keep taking some time to find things that bring me joy and perhaps some day soon i will make something that i feel proud of enough to share with u guys, or perhaps i will decide that all of that isnt for me and ill leave behind some sort of insane rambling manuscripts or something to be found decades after my death in a small cabin in the woods somewhere. might turn the stream on to yap and farm some shitty arpg at 5am occasionally if thats chill.
u guys are awesome and if u truly love esports thats awesome but just remember to take a minute sometimes, ykno? and also maybe its really important to have other things in ur life that bring u joy just in case this shit ever stops and u dont know wat to do with urself. later for now