Sakido, the bobm lass (HIATUS)

i... have no idea what to put here...
(@mp4pander for the amazing pfp image that i turned into a pfp)
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(Account by @yuarelovd)

[Sakido, the bobm lass (HIATUS) @bakosui96]

((Please read this
It's not too specific, but you could probably get an idea of why I don't feel like I deserve my popularity, and why I'm going on hiatus))

[SBtorms (Not much a hiatus, but not posting here) @yuarelovd]

I know that for the past few years, I've done many things that are absolutely unforgivable to people I care about.

Whether it was from me delusioning myself into thinking that I wasn't doing anything wrong, to me making decisions without entirely thinking about the consequences.

[Sakido, the bobm lass (HIATUS) @bakosui96]

@MannliestMann ((you're right))

[Sakido, the bobm lass (HIATUS) @bakosui96]

@GayLovinBenTen @UndyingHero_ ((that's weird, since i was, according to a calculator of a certain day in it "17 years 3 months 13 days"

lemme check something, hold on))

[Sakido, the bobm lass (HIATUS) @bakosui96]

@ALiteralKitten ((fair enough))

[Sakido, the bobm lass (HIATUS) @bakosui96]

@GayLovinBenTen @UndyingHero_ ((14, which, i know, doesn't make it any better

but the thread makes it sound like i was an adult at the time, when i barely turned 17))

[Sakido, the bobm lass (HIATUS) @bakosui96]

@GayLovinBenTen @UndyingHero_ ((i checked the thread
at most, i was 17, and only turned 18 on 2/2/2022))

[Sakido, the bobm lass (HIATUS) @bakosui96]

((The posts I've made aren't trying to justify anything
My actions are NOT justifiable.

I don't want anyone feeling bad for me.
I just want to explain that I want to try to improve myself.))

[Sakido, the bobm lass (HIATUS) @bakosui96]

((It's been said enough to a point where I need to explain something
I KNOW I'M IN THE WRONG
I KNOW I'M NOT A VICTIM
I KNOW I'VE FUCKED UP

I just want to TRY to improve myself))

[Sakido, the bobm lass (HIATUS) @bakosui96]

@HatredPlumber ((like i said on another qrt, i don't even remember doing so during a time outside of being a minor myself))

[Sakido, the bobm lass (HIATUS) @bakosui96]

@UndyingHero_ ((okay, on that front, i genuinely do not remember the last time i erped
last i remember doing so, i was also under 18

if this is disprovable, i'd understand
hell, even if i was under 18 when i last did so, i'd still understand))

[Sakido, the bobm lass (HIATUS) @bakosui96]

@EvilMustache183 ((Thank you
I'm not sure if I really deserve it, with what I've done, but I appreciate it either way

I DO want to do better))

[Sakido, the bobm lass (HIATUS) @bakosui96]

((I never wanted to be a bad person, believe me.

I've made bad decisions when i was younger than i forgot about, and with them coming back to bite me in the ass, i absolutely regret all of them.

I can't expect anyone to ever forgive me, or that i'll be accepted by anyone.))

[Sakido, the bobm lass (HIATUS) @bakosui96]

((I was genuniely surprised myself when I redrew her yesterday and was happier with that art than I've ever been with any other ref I've done of her.

Whether it's due to my improvement in art, or actually liking her more without the exaggeration, I don't know.
But it worked.))

[Sakido, the bobm lass (HIATUS) @bakosui96]

((I'll be honest about more I've done on here

When I've been so adament on the exaggerated body type I gave Sakido, it was because I worried that if I changed her too much, it wouldn't be the same.
That, and I was a fuckin' lazy-ass bitch about changing it.))

[Sakido, the bobm lass (HIATUS) @bakosui96]

((*that
another mistake i notice after posting
great))

[Sakido, the bobm lass (HIATUS) @bakosui96]

((*talented
of course I make a simple mistake like that))

[Sakido, the bobm lass (HIATUS) @bakosui96]

((I just hope everyone has a better life, with or without me in it.

I've always meant it when I said that I think all of you are talents, and cool, and deserve appreciation for your work.

Because it's true. You all do.

All I can do is try to improve and be a better person.))

[Sakido, the bobm lass (HIATUS) @bakosui96]

@TheFlatHero_64 ((you're right
and i'm sorry

i've done so much in the past, and even currently, sadly enough. so much that i regret, and that i'm growing to regret more and more))

[Sakido, the bobm lass (HIATUS) @bakosui96]

@Cocoa_CookieP ((truuuue :3))

[Sakido, the bobm lass (HIATUS) @bakosui96]

((i decided to redraw Sakido again, for the...
at this point, maybe 10+ time, thinking about it more than just "i've redrawn her a lot", even though, well... i have

I tried to make her colors more than just simple grays

I used blue-grays for the body
red-grays for the clothes))

[Sakido, the bobm lass (HIATUS) @bakosui96]

@GOLDENLAND1985 ((i can't, for the life of me, tell what's going on with that not-mic hand))