bpd kinda just is something you can't admit to having like, ever. no matter how much you believe your friends support you, you will be viewed as lesser
nowadays everyone's too much of a pussy to even look at you in the eye as they betray you. they're always like 'don't worry i'll stay by your side' two minutes before ghosting you forever. whatever happened to 'frankly my dear i don't give a damn.'
what sucks the most is that you introduced me to so many new things that i began to love, and now all of those things remind me of you. i can't escape you, it's impossible. but i know i also can't lay here, drowning in my own sorrows. it's just a shame. i can't enjoy it anymore.
from a very young age i knew my defense mechanism of choice was isolating because i didn’t want to bother people which so far has been more beneficial for me than it has any right to have but doesn’t bode well for me having any sort of social circle in even ~5 years
The United States is so immensely wealthy and living there feels like living somewhere 25 times less rich while you get constantly scammed and exploited in ways you didn’t even believe were possible
As a kid people were constantly "thinking" I was a girl and it lasted until I really got destroyed by puberty in high school and I honestly miss that a lot 😭
i hate how much i push people away,,, i wish id just die instead of hurting everyone who tries to care about me. i just feel fucking cursed. like everuthing i touch judt goes to shit. like i cant even trust the people who say they care about me
a once-starved dog takes a long time to learn that food isn't scarce anymore. when love and validation are absent for so much of our lives, unlearning that scarcity and making healthy connections based on more than a mutual terror of being alone can be just as hard a process.
I *LOVE* CPTSD! Like, what do you MEAN I’m in one the safest and most stable places I’ve ever been in my entire life and ALL I can think about is how it’s a ruse that’s going to be pulled out from beneath me to teach me a lesson? 😭
Maybe it’s just me but I think the normalization of asking people their pronouns has done more harm than good bc yall are only asking people who are visibly trans and it’s giving “I clocked you- are you girl or boy”