Maple

25yo
honestly just here to feel understood and less alone

[Maple @beansandmaple]

@camilla_villaa I don't think so but there unfortunately are a lot of people in these spaces who use their ED as an excuse to be awful to others

[Maple @beansandmaple]

@kissthewings @trimmtrb I mean this genuinely, could you maybe have some kind of intolerance to cucumbers? I frequently eat a whole cucumber or two as a snack and never noticed any effects on my poop so this is fascinating

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I overate again about this revelation🥰

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So I have ran into a problem. Now that I hit the goal weight I set on my app, it tells me to eat 800kcal more.But this is much more about feeling accomplished and having control. I guess I didn't consider what id do once I get here. I just want to restrict. Im good with my weight

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@strawberryteri_ It is so cute but I got so used to another app and got my progress and meals saved there which I dont wanna lose

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@myuleeee Not sure what would be the highest though, maybe gasoline? Idk man

[Maple @beansandmaple]

@myuleeee Not to be that gal but technically everything has calories. We calculate calories by drying out and burning things and measuring the energy that is burned. You could do that with pretty much everything. In that sense, non organic things that don't burn like rocks would be lowest

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@myuleeee In short: let's all eat rocks

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Yooo I dipped just under 50kg just now, let's gooo

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@cyberlyraa Oh yea for sure, I understand that side of it too

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@manicdollie Real, I just say stuff

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My sister asked if I wanted to get matcha today & I immediately panicked cuz I was JUST under 1000 kcal but instead of just saying no I tried to find an excuse.1st money. She said she'd pay. Then veganism. They only had vegan milk. At the end I did say no. Why am I so complicated

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I'm realising more each day that this coping mechanism is much more control related than I first thought

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I made more than double the amount of the pasta I cooked today cause my mom said she's gonna have it as well but she didn't end up eating any, now I have too much and idk how long it'll stay good for but I hate throwing out food and it's throwing off my entire plan

[Maple @beansandmaple]

@tweekuyomi A mix tbh. Mostly omad or 3 smaller meals, maybe even one of them being a bigger one if I'm feeling brave. I only fast when I have nowhere to be. I'm terrified of my stomach growling in public so I don't fast when I gotta go to uni or something

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@w0wthatscrazyyy Lunch works best for me when I do omad

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Dinner:
Went all out with some tofu & TVP stroganov pasta and a side of air fried veggies (~625 kcal)

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Gonna try and see if logging my food does anything for me

Breakfast: soy-joghurt with berries, Yorkshire tea with oatmilk and just some B12 and Omega-3s (165 kcal)

[Maple @beansandmaple]

Lunch:
Half a hazelnut protein shake, a carrot and some grapes (195 kcal)