☕️

she/her ⚰️21.

[☕️ @bonestode3th]

can’t believe I lost my twitcher account that I had for 9 years

[☕️ @bonestode3th]

will go home and I’ll probably play video games hihi

[☕️ @bonestode3th]

so im about to fail my third year i lack sm ambition

[☕️ @bonestode3th]

good thing drugs exist so i don’t become insane

[☕️ @bonestode3th]

hey so im not dead

[☕️ @bonestode3th]

yogurt bowls are the reason why i exist

[☕️ @bonestode3th]

I just ate 8 protein bars help😀

[☕️ @bonestode3th]

the idea of food 😍 food 😕

[☕️ @bonestode3th]

me when I realize that the food that i buy has to end up being eaten as some point 😀

[☕️ @bonestode3th]

everywhere I go I resent how no one knows what I used to look like sm thinner sm prettier and now im this uglier version of myself i hate it

[☕️ @bonestode3th]

it’s really hard looking at myself i feel so fat no matter what i do i can’t stand looking at myself i look disgusting and big i don’t want to eat ever again

[☕️ @bonestode3th]

im sure the boy that I like doesn’t gaf that my collarbones don’t show as much as they did anymore but I’m convinced he does

[☕️ @bonestode3th]

this is the cereal that I use btw it’s very expensive so i always put like 20 g which is around 100 calories for 7 g of protein

[☕️ @bonestode3th]

lighting is terrible but yog bowl with banana, kiwi, protein cereal and peanut butter

[☕️ @bonestode3th]

and I eat very carby foods and protein like potatoes .. but even when I’m physically in pain I’m still thinking abt what I’ll eat next or tomorrow

[☕️ @bonestode3th]

i really struggle with eating until I’m full like even when I’m full I still want to eat I don’t know why it’s so bad

[☕️ @bonestode3th]

I made this delicious chicken curry that i was supposed to keep for my lunch but for some reason I woke up starving I thought I was going to have a couple bites I ended up just eating it bruh

[☕️ @bonestode3th]

- idk what I’ll make this acc ig an acc to stay accountable bc the amount of times when I want to restrict and go back to bmi 15 are very much there hope I won’t disappoint any of you feel free to unfollow or idk

[☕️ @bonestode3th]

hey sorry for disappearing i decided to take recovery a chance and im at bmi 16.9 when my lowest was 15 so yeah weight gain is scary and it took me half a year to gain because i was insanely scared but im adjusting to my new energy and i kinda like it idk it’s very messy-

[☕️ @bonestode3th]

- than before I rarely binge now bc I actually feel satisfied and im not hard on myself if i overeat im able to enjoy conversations without my mind focusing on food anddd just the fact that my food noise is already good enough for me bc that shot was annoying af-