BorderlinePersonalityDisorder.InRealLife

Welcome to the thoughts of a mom/teacher/wife struggling to live life after being diagnosed with #PTSD & #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder. #MentalHealthMatters

[BorderlinePersonalityDisorder.InRealLife @bpd_irl]

@Racheldoesstuff Just watched the episode where Rebecca Bunch was diagnosed with BPD. I don’t care that she’s a fictional character. It feels so good to have someone who understands what it’s like live inside my mind! #mentalhealthmatters #BPD @CW_CrazyXGF

[BorderlinePersonalityDisorder.InRealLife @bpd_irl]

Anyone else feel like they have a story to tell - but no one to listen? It’s a lonely feeling. 😔

[BorderlinePersonalityDisorder.InRealLife @bpd_irl]

“I hate everybody, so why can’t I go home without somebody?” -@halsey #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #lyricstofeedthesoul

[BorderlinePersonalityDisorder.InRealLife @bpd_irl]

I want to snuggle my husband 24/7. But I also want him to leave me the hell alone. But then I also also want him to tell me I’m pretty. #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder

[BorderlinePersonalityDisorder.InRealLife @bpd_irl]

I want to believe that I’m just overthinking things...but am I really? This is my thought process every day, all day. It’s exhausting.

[BorderlinePersonalityDisorder.InRealLife @bpd_irl]

Yeah, yell at me more. That’s super helpful. 🙄

[BorderlinePersonalityDisorder.InRealLife @bpd_irl]

I want to be a good mom, but I also want to drop my daughter at daycare and eat cake in bed every day. #MentalHealthMatters

[BorderlinePersonalityDisorder.InRealLife @bpd_irl]

I know lots of people will read my last tweet and laugh or think I’m trying to be funny. But truly this is giving me more anxiety then I’ve had in a looonnnngggg time.

[BorderlinePersonalityDisorder.InRealLife @bpd_irl]

Today my therapist gave me the hardest homework she’s ever given me. She challenged me to sit down with someone, make eye contact with them and ask a question to get to know them without disassociating. #MentalHealthMatters #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder

[BorderlinePersonalityDisorder.InRealLife @bpd_irl]

Is it healthy to think and live this way?! ABSOLUTELY NOT!!
But is it the way I’m feeling right now??
ABSO-FUCKIN-LUTELY!!

[BorderlinePersonalityDisorder.InRealLife @bpd_irl]

How much does a wife have to do to get a freaking compliment from the husband!?!?!?!?!! 😡😡😡😡🤯🤯🤯 like dayyyuuumm son! Doesn’t he know I have BPD and need constant verbal approval to maintain a stable mood. #MentalHealthMatters #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder

[BorderlinePersonalityDisorder.InRealLife @bpd_irl]

3:31am. Wide awake. I should be doing sit-ups. Meh.....I’ll just lie here and pretend I’m asleep.

[BorderlinePersonalityDisorder.InRealLife @bpd_irl]

Having BPD is like putting pieces of shattered glass into the soil and then wondering why the plants won’t grow. #MentalHealthMatters #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder

[BorderlinePersonalityDisorder.InRealLife @bpd_irl]

To the person who feels the need to refer to themselves as a “retard” or “retarded,” how sad I am for you. You have put up a wall so thick around yourself that you cannot see the hurt and shame that word blankets the world with. #MentalHealthMatters #SpreadTheWordToEndTheWord

[BorderlinePersonalityDisorder.InRealLife @bpd_irl]

I realize I should have started my last tweet with, “What do you do when you FEEL that the world...”
Welcome to the mind of someone with BPD. I don’t say the shit I say because I’m trying to shock people, it’s honestly what’s going on in my brain. #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder

[BorderlinePersonalityDisorder.InRealLife @bpd_irl]

What else is there to do when you realize that the world would actually be a better place without you? Cry, I guess...like a lot.
#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #MentalHealthMatters #imsafe.ipromise

[BorderlinePersonalityDisorder.InRealLife @bpd_irl]

Feeling like I just want to sleep forever. #MentalHealthMatters #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder

[BorderlinePersonalityDisorder.InRealLife @bpd_irl]

Being married is hard. Like so freaking hard. #MentalHealthMatters #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder

[BorderlinePersonalityDisorder.InRealLife @bpd_irl]

Living with BPD is like being on the verge of alcohol poisoning at all times. You can be on top of the world one second and puking out a car window the next. #mentalhealthmatters #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder

[BorderlinePersonalityDisorder.InRealLife @bpd_irl]

Christmas. Aka an all-around emotional roller coaster. #MentalHealthMatters #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder

[BorderlinePersonalityDisorder.InRealLife @bpd_irl]

I know it’s okay to not be okay....can someone please let my boss know that?! #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #MentalHealthMatters