One day you will understand why your timing was perfect and why things had to happen exactly the way they did. To protect you, to guide you, and to redirect you to where you were always meant to be. Trust the process of your path, evolution and growth – it's all divine timing.
Being in a healthy relationship really taught me there's no such thing as 'that's just the way I am'. When you truly love someone you work on those toxic traits, you learn to communicate, you actively listen to each others thoughts & feelings – you adjust, grow & heal together.
You want a relationship to work but you have to be willing to learn how a person needs to be loved. You need to know why they are the way they are... the history not just the easy stuff but the hard things also.