If you don't know what to pursue in life right now. Pursue yourself. Pursue becoming the healthiest, happiest, most healed, most present, most confident version of yourself. Then the right path will reveal itself. Alignment is everything. You are the keeper of your own gate.
saying "u my bm i won" and "everybody can see i don't want you" in the same sentence should show how manipulative and narcissistic and evil men can truly be...