I know no one cares probably but I will not post anymore or interact with #edrtwt I want to recover really this time. I am finally getting help after like a year of struggling with my ED. Wish me luck and I hope all of u recover one day too ♡.
Being a child means having no responsibilities and being cared for without having to ask for it. Personally, I never felt loved or prioritised as a child so part of me wants to look frail and vulnerable because I associate that with being worried about and treated gently
I feel like I relapsed because once I got back to my starting weight and later lost even 2 kg as I was eating more "healthy" and smaller portions, I got scared I shouldn't eat more or I would gain more weight...
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@minopewar Honestly I'm not sure I think it built over time. But I was in a very bad place mentally and thought achieving this goal weight I couldn't before somehow would make me feel good and distract me 🥹 I also obviously hated more my body over the months when I thought I recovered...
I don't want to waste my whole life like this ૮◞‸◟˶𑁬 i just want to be happy , and free. . . please tell me how u get over your deception of never getting to your goal weight and not being sick anymore. . . #edrtwt#recovery I don't know what to tag sm sorry