Alex

28 | she/they | shedtwt | disabled Welcome to my messy internet diary lol

[Alex @calexories]

I'm gonna be chasing this high for a minute holy shit that felt powerful

[Alex @calexories]

Y'all ever tell someone who's trying to gaslight you "no" and then when they hit the sarcastic "oh I guess I must be wrong about everything and it's all my fault all the time" you tell em "yeah" and watch how they fucking malfunction bc they don't know what to do w that

[Alex @calexories]

Also hi chat. Sorry I disappeared. I've been in my protein and depression era.

[Alex @calexories]

Words cannot describe how badly I want to b**t the brakes off of every fucking neurotypical who gives you that absolutely stupid fucking look whenever you talk because they've arbitrarily decided the don't like you.

[Alex @calexories]

Oh that was an uncomfortably familiar feeling.

[Alex @calexories]

@luvorxia I'm begging on my hands and knees rn pls I miss my toxic shedtwt yaoi

[Alex @calexories]

Can't shit? No worries! Just get into mild conflict with someone you love and it'll clear right out!

[Alex @calexories]

Old habits die hard 🥰🥰

[Alex @calexories]

Making dudes write fucking paragraphs when they wrong you 💀

[Alex @calexories]

Every fight is a reminder of why I was never made for human connection.

[Alex @calexories]

Currently having a breakdown over the fact I have been sick for half my fucking life with literally nothing to show for it

[右田歩 @akaironotanin]

#NEEDY_GIRL_OVERDOSE

[Alex @calexories]

Why couldn't this horse have stayed dead I'm slowly losing my mind again

[Alex @calexories]

I feel like I'm about to lose my fucking shit lmaoooo

[Alex @calexories]

I can't talk to anyone else about this besides my brother but last night I learned the horse is not in fact dead on something from

Checks notes

Over 2 years ago

And I honestly am so back LOL

[Alex @calexories]

Yk if having an abusive mom growing up has done me any favors it's made me realize how fucking BAD men are at gaslighting holy shit LMAO

[Alex @calexories]

"you always think I'm acting this way" because you are! Hope this helps asshole! Don't want an accurate description of your behavior, maybe fix it!

[Alex @calexories]

God I feel so fucking miserable. I'm sick and that means I must be treated like trash instead of being helped or taken care of, of course. I wish I wasn't so needy. I wish I had stuck to the idea of living a solitary life, minding my own business. People are exhausting.

[Alex @calexories]

I had such big dreams as a kid.

Oh how disappointed that little girl would be if she saw me now.

[Alex @calexories]

Maybe in another life I am the girl I pretended to be in high school. I was happy, I had friends, I got invited to parties and asked out on dates and I was in a club. And I was smart. God I was so smart.

And, maybe for a moment, I was even loved.

I miss that.

[Alex @calexories]

I'm not destined for anything good in life, let alone anything great. At best I'm destined to rot away in my room peacefully having achieved absolutely nothing in life. I'm not even a main character in my own life anymore.