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vent | i ♡ Louis Tomlinson | 19

[calum ◟̽◞̽ | 🪐 @calloveslouis]

you don’t ever say to yourself “look, I’ve got an eating disorder” but you know you’re like, making a list of everything you put in your mouth that day and you know, that’s probably not right

[calum ◟̽◞̽ | 🪐 @calloveslouis]

Im so sad and depressed and tired but why was THIS the first class this semester where I actually paid attention and took notes (I hate uni)

[calum ◟̽◞̽ | 🪐 @calloveslouis]

Man I love my best friend so much I was legit having a fuckass stupid day and she made me laugh instant not even trying #bigfanoflea

[calum ◟̽◞̽ | 🪐 @calloveslouis]

Eating disorder so weird I actively choose to struggle just to control anything at this point

[calum ◟̽◞̽ | 🪐 @calloveslouis]

Account so old I ain’t even bisexual anymore

[calum ◟̽◞̽ | 🪐 @calloveslouis]

@walnussplunder Oh

[calum ◟̽◞̽ | 🪐 @calloveslouis]

I can feel the depressive episode coming (I fear this won’t be an episode but the whole damn thing this time)

[calum ◟̽◞̽ | 🪐 @calloveslouis]

Depression is so weird I feel exactly like I did with 14 and at the same time totally different man

[calum ◟̽◞̽ | 🪐 @calloveslouis]

Hometown slander real

[calum ◟̽◞̽ | 🪐 @calloveslouis]

me also knowing these last like two weeks maximum so I’ll be fine JUST in time when the weather is good (I’m at the verge of breaking down I haven’t slept in two days and i didn’t even leave this bed😝)

[calum ◟̽◞̽ | 🪐 @calloveslouis]

Depressive episode got so bad I logged into this account again

[calum ◟̽◞̽ | 🪐 @calloveslouis]

Girl I see a pattern now depressive episodes trigger my need to control stuff and guess where this is going

[calum ◟̽◞̽ | 🪐 @calloveslouis]

@walnussplunder Happy birthday my love

[calum ◟̽◞̽ | 🪐 @calloveslouis]

The WORST thing just happened to me in that biology class and I can’t even tell my bff 😣😣😣😣

[calum ◟̽◞̽ | 🪐 @calloveslouis]

Might lie about it obviously can’t let gang know

[calum ◟̽◞̽ | 🪐 @calloveslouis]

Bruh this is literally insane bc why do we have to COUNT our daily and weekly calories in biology class I am ???

[calum ◟̽◞̽ | 🪐 @calloveslouis]

Bruh this is literally insane bc why do we have to COUNT our daily and weekly calories in biology class I am ???

[calum ◟̽◞̽ | 🪐 @calloveslouis]

@walnussplunder babeee :(

[calum ◟̽◞̽ | 🪐 @calloveslouis]

@walnussplunder Dubai Style hater for life

[calum ◟̽◞̽ | 🪐 @calloveslouis]

Well !

[calum ◟̽◞̽ | 🪐 @calloveslouis]

My task in German class is to write about romanticism of eating disorders including online platforms 🤗 gotta b careful not to trigger tf out of me

[calum ◟̽◞̽ | 🪐 @calloveslouis]

I hate men wtf

[calum ◟̽◞̽ | 🪐 @calloveslouis]

@walnussplunder Causally 10€ für so 50 Gramm ist crazy leider 😔

[calum ◟̽◞̽ | 🪐 @calloveslouis]

Im doing my presentation about anorexia yolo bc like