bambi | recovery??

[bambi | recovery?? @catsloml]

The fact that it’s been 10 years since I developed my disordered eating and 5 years since I’m actually disordered proves that this shit doesn’t go away

[bambi | recovery?? @catsloml]

I said I’d reach out for help when I turn 18 but my therapist dropped me in February and I need to find a new one but I forget it all the time

[bea @beas5_]

8 years of disordered eating and i’m still fat bruh did i even try

[bambi | recovery?? @catsloml]

I didn’t even fully relapse but I’m already dying when I stand up and this is happening on the day I actually have to do something important

[bambi | recovery?? @catsloml]

This is the 5th time this year that I’m dieting longer than a week or actively participating in my old behaviour I wish I never would’ve gotten sick and I wish it wouldn’t be so hard to recover

[bambi | recovery?? @catsloml]

The most logical thing to do is to reach out and ask for help but the thought of being denied to relapse and having to put effort into my recovery makes me sick I wish the way I am eating right now wouldn’t come with the disordered thoughts plus I give in way too easily

[bambi | recovery?? @catsloml]

I tweet this with a delicious meal in my bag but that’s basically omad

[bambi | recovery?? @catsloml]

Went from my sister to my friend with only one meal and I’m about to drink the night away oh I am so back

[bambi | recovery?? @catsloml]

2 of my best friends broke up and this is legit the only acc I can talk about it and it’s so weird to stand between them like I was prepared for this to happen but it’s so awkward to know what the other one is feeling without telling the other one what they’re feeling

[bambi | recovery?? @catsloml]

I’ll finally get my adhd medication 3 months after my diagnosis however questions is if I would have to stop taking them if I ever choose full recovery

[rose @shubsarexie]

man fuck the get worse diet fuck the accountability thread fuck the weight loss fuck restriction and fuck this ed

[bambi | recovery?? @catsloml]

Nothing could give me more euphoria than a empty stomach

[bambi | recovery?? @catsloml]

Skipping meals is no longer an option why doesn’t recovery come with a private chef

[bambi | recovery?? @catsloml]

I’m not even strong enough to push the keys down on my laptop someone actually kill me wtf

[bambi | recovery?? @catsloml]

I hate all of this the pressure to recover after relapsing the 3rd time this week I can’t seem to get out of it I hate food, I hate the feeling of it in my stomach, I hate feeling so tired after purging, I hate this disorder

[luna @yooxical]

how gymbros feel after discovering something that anorexic teen girls have been doing for years

[bambi | recovery?? @catsloml]

Eating is sooo exhausting Wdym I have to know what I want to eat all the time

[bambi | recovery?? @catsloml]

Maybe I’m gonna open up to my therapist when I turn 18 I don’t want all that stress with my parents

[bambi | recovery?? @catsloml]

It doesn’t matter how hard I try the next relapse is never far away 😝😝 might as well relapse fully

[bambi | recovery?? @catsloml]

Currently there’s no stability in my social life anymore Yk what that means