@Mick_Finnegan Mick - can I suggest buying a kids book in Dutch then learning a bit more through reading it? I’ve got the Harry Potter books in French and Dutch and they’re so helpful.
@Gaz3putt It’s a coat you never quite take off. I still want to send my old step-dad a photo of something daft, 31 years on, I think about how he would have smiled and said “Ay lass, tha’s s good’un!”. That gets me through. I hope you give yourself time to accept it all.