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say hi to my ED brain. 5'6" hw 140 gw 0 #ednos #edrecovery

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🍂🌥Fall Weight Thread🍁🎃

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Don't want to restrict today but I have to because I overate last night. I hate this so much

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Ugh!

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I hate everything about being alive. Gonna need some time to process and decide what to do.

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Holy s. I just watched cowspiracy. What a world

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#food stash additions from TJ's

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latest additions to my food stash #oreos #chocolate

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I'm okay with occasional binges to up my metabolism. I also don't want to pass out in class but I was feeling close yesterday.

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- like I'm not upset about it much. God the restricting mindset is just so good to be in.

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- pounding heart, hot flashes. But my aftereffects are not so pronounced this time. I also don't feel like I have to keep binging. It's -

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Binged last night on a costco poppyseed muffin, a choc chip cookie, and 5tbsp PB. Normally that would flood me with sugar and cause -

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127.8 lbs last night, then I mini binged to 129

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I cannot believe how awful it is. My heart goes out to all the people. https://t.co/ym9BHYFPbi

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More than 50 dead as Mandalay Bay Las Vegas shooting becomes worst in U.S. history https://t.co/bgmfaaup3U

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I'm like a compulsive buyer. Whenever I want to binge, I must buy, and that kinda prevents me from actually binging.

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129.2 lbs. Finally broke 130 (again).

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although i don't really need to because i realize i have mpa...maybe i should just delete this account :(

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so i guess i'm back on ED twitter.

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someone jokingly said that i love mayo so much i'd eat out of the jar while watching gilmore girls --> instantly triggered. #why

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heart problems. because i can't imagine being unable to run...that goal of becoming a good runner is still out there to be caught. #running

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anxiety coming back. i did have a ton of caffeine yesterday...i really hope it's just some anxiety and not sleep problems or even worse,