Sadly I must always walk around with a “absolutely no spending at all” mindset because as soon as I flip the switch over to “ok I can maybe get something” mode, it’s like BAM irreparable damage to the monthly budget
i think one of the fastest ways to make me detach from someone is realizing i was holding them with a level of care and consideration they were never holding me with because once my brain notices that discrepancy it preserves it in amber and files it away as evidence forever
i have never once felt like i have given my love to the wrong people. if it wasn’t reciprocal then let it be an experience. up to this day i still feel like the universe’s beloved and luckiest daughter as the odds work in my favor. but yes, love always finds its way back, indeed.