ceradona

Suffering Enthusiast
She/Her | 🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍🌈🔞 | 27 | Certified Sappho | M.Ed. Student

[ceradona @ceradona]

@marcetheswag @softbunnypaws_ absolutely mad power move, never thought of it that way and I feel like my world just expanded.

[ceradona @ceradona]

@Synthwave_ninja @Erisalyoshy Honestly I think you're super onto something.
I do think the religion aspect can fit into it still, too. If the religion has strict gender roles/is very collectivist, transitioning can be seen as a way to "conform"/not disrupt the collective as well.

[ceradona @ceradona]

@russelt4tdavies @Tizzzy__ Honestly that's sort of been messing me up, too. My worst instinct is that they're only chill because of the power dynamic, but honestly most of the students I've seen have been good, empathetic people. More than my generation was at least.

Definitely fear the parents, tho. Yike

[ceradona @ceradona]

@ariadotwav Teacher insurance is decent for ffs at least (for now. I'm sure by the time I'm enrolled it won't be. Love it here.)
It's all about going into crippling student loan debt instead of crippling medical debt, you see.

[ceradona @ceradona]

@VanieVermilion It'll be alright, hun. I wish it could be right now, but it'll be okay.

[ceradona @ceradona]

@TwitchSupport And if that wasn't enough, your system IMMEDIATELY (read: within 10 seconds) denied her appeal! For no reason! No real person could possibly have read it in that time.

If I beg hard enough, could an actual human being with reasoning and empathy look at her case again?

[ceradona @ceradona]

@TwitchSupport If someone has their phone locked to a single account, so no other account can use it, how can another account possibly be created with it?

Because that's what happened to my girlfriend. Someone SOMEHOW used her number, and as a result your system banned her.

[V Vermilion (Inactive) @VanieVermilion]

its still a work in progress but we have our server already! As I mentioned before it'll focus on art giveaways and just chilling. Other artists can join too if they wanna draw streamers/vtubers but for the time being I'm the only artist providing free art rn
#artgiveaway #vtuber

[ceradona @ceradona]

wife is desperate to draw

[V Vermilion (Inactive) @VanieVermilion]

soooomeone hiiire meee please I’ll make emotes, chibi model whatever that i can experiment on im so bored and unemployed can even do a weekly/monthly sub🥺🥹to “V’s art” and get whatever i can draw within that time period aaaaaaaaaaaaaa hire me

[ceradona @ceradona]

@ValeValkyron I still love the little bounces when it walks

[ceradona @ceradona]

@_JerseyVT I feel like I'm missing something but I'm afraid to ask..

[V Vermilion (Inactive) @VanieVermilion]

[Update!]
I stopped posting again lol but here is a quick update. This is my new bean❤️Moving forward I'll probably just focus on art & maybe do occasional streaming here and there with friends or my gfs
This was my first genuine attempt at rigging so I'm glad it turned out okay.

[ceradona @ceradona]

@VanieVermilion It came out so well!!! You did awesome, love 💖

[Vale Valkyron 🦊🥼 @ValeValkyron]

That's where the problem lies Vera. Because you continue to see and treat Vanie as a character, a caricature you've built in your head. You refuse to see her as an actual person.

Just like you always have.

All you had to do was just once acknowledge the person behind the avatar and respect her single remaining wish. A wish that honestly shouldn't even have to be made because you should've had the decency to remove the couples emotes with her after you broke up. She was okay with you having them as memories in private, she stated as such multiple times. But rather than just respect that simple request, you decided to continue to parade them around in a public setting, treating Vanie like a trophy, and then have the gall to try and garner sympathy for it.

I really didn't want to weigh in on this because I hate conflict and especially public discourse on something that is frankly a personal matter and should have been handled in private. I'm still on hiatus to deal with my own personal life and really really despise having to make this post, and I wouldn't even have to if you'd just kept things private.

But instead you decided to throw out announcements on both your Discord and here, making this the public's problem. Not only that, you tried to spin the narrative in your favor to make Vanie look like an embittered ex, whether intentional or not, even going as far as banning both my girlfriends from the Tavern Discord the second Cera tried to call you out on it (in a pretty gentle manner to be honest).

But if you're going make it everyone's problem, then I'm going to make sure everyone has a better picture of what was actually going on.

And that's right, girlfriends, plural. Because one thing you've conveniently neglected to actually ever mention or acknowledge in public these past few months, even once, is that we were all dating for several months.

So let me talk to anyone reading this and clear some things up:
Cera and I started dating Vera and Vanie around early-mid May and we were all together until around the same time in August, at which point Vera and Vanie decided to break up, with myself and Cera also breaking up with Vera shortly thereafter. I won't go into too much detail because, again, that was all private.

That being said, the existence of the relationship itself was never private, because I'm not ashamed to acknowledge my love for Cera or Vanie, nor was I for Vera while we were still dating. But myself and Cera were always treated as secondary to Vanie by Vera, to the point that even while we were dating, she still only ever treated Vanie as her actual full-on girlfriend, especially in public.

For effectively the entire duration of our relationship, Cera and I were trying to help make things work between Vera and Vanie. I even went as far as defending Vera and taking her side every single time to make sure her opinion was heard and her feelings understood. Even when it caused conflict between me, Cera, and Vanie. Even when it brought me months of endless breakdowns and suffering, compounding with my already fragile emotional and mental state and my ongoing health issues.

Fuck, half the reason I even went on hiatus to begin with was that I was at the absolute end of my line and I physically couldn't keep dealing with everything. I needed something to stop so I could try and recover at least a little bit.

And you tried to make things work too while we were dating Vera, I know you did.
But you never tried enough, and not in the ways that truly mattered.

I really did love you Vera, so incredibly much. Despite everything, in some ways I still do. And I still want you to be happy.

But Vera, I'm tired of you always forcing your way, refusing to even acknowledge anyone else's needs, of ever even considering the consequences of your actions or how they may affect anyone else. You just force your path and everyone else has to follow it, no matter how much they get hurt in the process. Because in the end the only thing that truly matters to you is what you want.

As much as you went on about your supposed selflessness and not having any dreams or desires of your own, all we ever did was try to appease those exact desires you claimed to never have.

And I'm sorry, but you are absolutely selfish.

This is the only time I'll be weighing in on this unless my hand is forced again, but I won't stand by while you mistreat my girlfriends anymore. Please try to show an ounce of compassion for anyone else for once.

[ceradona @ceradona]

@lunanocteurne @VanieVermilion I don't really want to leave this unsaid, but claiming deescalation and saying Vanie is "misrepresenting it as stolen" are not compatible. You either were taking a side while feigning neutrality, or you failed miserably at deescalation.

[ceradona @ceradona]

@lunanocteurne @VanieVermilion You say she treats her in high regard, but she omitted that she was asked to remove the emotes. Repeatedly.

[ceradona @ceradona]

@lunanocteurne @VanieVermilion Isn't it sort of misrepresentation to say that because she didn't complain about *her* emotes being in the community while she was part of the community, she somehow waives her ability to remove *her* emotes from the community when she leaves it?

[ceradona @ceradona]

@lunanocteurne @verakisaragi @VanieVermilion And just to clarify, before anyone says anything: when I say Vanie's emotes, I mean the ones Vanie drew of her character. Not the ones she drew of Vera.
I don't think that's ever been in question, but I can just taste the idea brewing in someone's head.

[ceradona @ceradona]

@lunanocteurne @verakisaragi @VanieVermilion I was unaware we equivocated licensure and ethics here. Vanie's emotes were on the server because Vanie was on the server, not because they were donated.
Besides, if the community's culture hinges on a relationship, we may as well just delete the server at this point.