camilla

emotionally low BMI / 23

[camilla @ceramicfawn]

got a job so i’m rereading paradise lost to remind myself of the cruelties of authority

[camilla @ceramicfawn]

my sibling says i’m the one barrier keeping them from kts and im on call 24/7 and the millisecond i need some advice and reassurance im fucking blocked. sure. cry to me about your ideation and then ignore me when i’m the same. painful realizing your life means nothing. nothing.

[camilla @ceramicfawn]

24 w my masters moved back into parents no job no bf :,( #helpme

[Rae-Aila @finalfantasikh]

Try 22 graduated from college moving back into parents crib working retail w a gf across the country

[camilla @ceramicfawn]

soft launching my switch from anorexia to orthorexia to my family members

[orange car @kuscpusc]

Self harming by living with my parents in my 20s

[Αριάδνη @vvvanitaas]

quitting working on my mental health to focus on substance abuse

[camilla @ceramicfawn]

so depressed i’m just gonna start smoking cigarettes in front of my parents

[camilla @ceramicfawn]

every single waking moment of my stupid life is an exercise in the self control of not blowing my fucking brains out in a public setting

[camilla @ceramicfawn]

realizing in real time the one family member you thought really knew you couldn’t give less of a fuck about you unless you play the role they’ve assigned you in their head is crazy. like realizing you’re truly alone.

[camilla @ceramicfawn]

living at home mid 20s has taught me that i actually had a bad childhood and that i am completely 100% on my own. have been relying on people who don’t know me and wouldn’t actually like me if they did.

[Solie @lily__pond]

One of the worst days ever and it’s not even 3pm

[camilla @ceramicfawn]

seeing family for the first time in a while and they still are making comments about “you never eat” even tho i regained and my dad said im at 100 lbs holy body recomp - i was 100 lbs when they were talking about hospitalising me. i gotta quit drinking it’s ruining my potential

[camilla @ceramicfawn]

just went thru the tsa line they making us strip now. was allowed to keep my boots on though. #tsaprecheck

[brandy ♡ @vani11a_kisses]

i’m such an ed larper

[camilla @ceramicfawn]

soooooooo stuck between getting as thin as possible and not getting uber thin bc i don’t like the sudden reversal into hyper feminine “dainty” women at a time when global politics is this conservative and violent against women.

[camilla @ceramicfawn]

just had to call my dad and ask if he’d buy extra contraceptives for me in case someone raped me yay america.

[nick @iiperyt]

i kinda have an eating disorder but like in a chill way

[camilla @ceramicfawn]

high as hell and my dad randomly came home mf go back to work i can’t speak rn.

[camilla @ceramicfawn]

got super high earlier and young louis from 1D is lowkey thinspo

[camilla @ceramicfawn]

Okay logging Off for 2 months to lock the fuck in see y'all soon.