Cecile 🌿

Edtwt & vent acc • 27 • she/her • ednos and many other mental health issues + recovering alcoholic ☠️

[Cecile 🌿 @chamomilekcal]

📍Unpinning when I’m back where I started ✨💀🔫🍀 (embarrassing)

[Cecile 🌿 @chamomilekcal]

@calorlaine thank you 🫶🏻

[Cecile 🌿 @chamomilekcal]

hi everyone, i ended up in the er yesterday and i think i might be back here soon

[Cecile 🌿 @chamomilekcal]

yeah things aren’t going well, see you next year

[Cecile 🌿 @chamomilekcal]

i relapsed with alc while on disulfiram (was given a dose yesterday) so i have an antabuse reaction and i just b/p’d like a litre of ice cream

[Cecile 🌿 @chamomilekcal]

@virtuaIrain @felixsblades thanks for letting me know! unfollowed them 🫥

[Cecile 🌿 @chamomilekcal]

i was supposed to fast today but my bf came over straight from his trip & we ate pizza together 🥲 i had 559cals worth of pizza, burnt 959 cals today so i should be okay, but the scale will most likely be up tmrw ughhh

[Cecile 🌿 @chamomilekcal]

unfortunately i ate today so i’m at 903 cals, burnt 684 so net is 219. i feel gross so i took lax.

[Cecile 🌿 @chamomilekcal]

my bf is hours away at a big party with his friends, there are other girlfriends and a bunch of random new people and i’ve been anxious af

[Cecile 🌿 @chamomilekcal]

I was feeling lazy but realised i have no days to waste before the holidays so did an hour of cardio

[Cecile 🌿 @chamomilekcal]

Also i’ve been eating under 900 cals for a while now so weight loss hurry up

[Cecile 🌿 @chamomilekcal]

Pictures are bad and whatever, point is to see my efforts everyday!

[Cecile 🌿 @chamomilekcal]

I have been super consistent recently and i’m proud of myself 💪🏻

[Cecile 🌿 @chamomilekcal]

my bf has started complimenting me so much more again now that i’ve lost almost 10kg

[Cecile 🌿 @chamomilekcal]

my sleeping schedule is horrible (it’s almost 4am rn) but i’ve stayed super consistent otherwise. sleep, fast, omad, exercise.

[Cecile 🌿 @chamomilekcal]

felt lazy and tired, went to the gym nevertheless. my heart rate was up more than normal and i felt ugh BUT i’m so happy now that i went!! ITS👏🏻ALWAYS👏🏻WORTH IT 👏🏻

[Cecile 🌿 @chamomilekcal]

Just compared my bc from 2 months ago and oh god i looked legitimately like a beluga. I’m down 9kg/20lb

[Cecile 🌿 @chamomilekcal]

@laurishungry hii 💚

[Cecile 🌿 @chamomilekcal]

I know it’s no excuse that i have my period and had 360cals worth of chocolate, so yeah, i suck but i worked out to burn it off

[Cecile 🌿 @chamomilekcal]

Whoever said cravings last only 20 minutes… i just want to talk

[Cecile 🌿 @chamomilekcal]

Whoever said cravings last only 20 minutes… i just want to talk

[Cecile 🌿 @chamomilekcal]

56 days sober, and today i have alc cravings. :/ I’m on Disulfiram so i can’t drink anyways but ugh it’s a terrible feeling