chaotickat on bsky, Kat B (they)

Queer mama. Love: food, cats, knitting, TTRPGs. Data nerd geologist. ADHD, autistic (self & semi dx), #MECFS, maybe #hEDS too.
#CovidIsNotOver

[chaotickat on bsky, Kat B (they) @chaotic_kat]

Hi! I'm Kat. If you're new here because of some tweet, be forewarned that I talk about many things and very sporadically. I don't always have the brain power to write out my thoughts, so I'm often in the replies and RTing other folks' thoughts.
Here are some of my brain dump:

[chaotickat on bsky, Kat B (they) @chaotic_kat]

@MingwLee @Prominent_Bryan The counting part is the fastest. It's everything in between that takes time!

[chaotickat on bsky, Kat B (they) @chaotic_kat]

@nbpolitico @Prominent_Bryan They are due to an electoral office by end of voting day here, and the mail-in deadline is earlier up allow for delivery by then.

[chaotickat on bsky, Kat B (they) @chaotic_kat]

Fuck now I've been awake so long that I'm hungry. So much for doing to sleep 😩

[chaotickat on bsky, Kat B (they) @chaotic_kat]

I can't sleep. I'm all wound up trying to figure out how to build a new life but I just feel trapped. How do possibly do this? How could I possibly afford to? How did I let myself get pulled into this mess?

I'm sad and feeling a bit defeated. But I need find a way

[chaotickat on bsky, Kat B (they) @chaotic_kat]

@XianJaneway 👀 I am intrigued. I've never heard of this before, so I looked it up and holy shit! I might need to give this a try

[tern @1goodtern]

For everyone who has managed to avoid Covid for nearly five years, but has recently been infected, you haven't failed. Covid hasn't won.
You've won for five years, and you're going to win again for another five.
Better to catch this once in five years than five times in one.

[chaotickat on bsky, Kat B (they) @chaotic_kat]

My mind is churning, trying to find a way to balance life commitments, and to find a way out, and I'm stumped. I don't know how to do it. Something has to give. I'm tired of giving pieces of myself.

I don't want to go to sleep like this but the chaos starts again in 6 hrs.

[chaotickat on bsky, Kat B (they) @chaotic_kat]

This fight feels like one we're not coming back from. Not because of words that should have been unsaid. Because one person walked away without a word and, based on recent conflicts, attempts at repairs aren't going to happen

[yamn Ziad in Gaza🇵🇸 @ZiadYamn594401]

No one helps me and no one participates 😔 Where is everyone? No one supports or applies this saying. 🤍 🚫 I am so frustrated 🍉 I am crying 😭 I am screaming 💔 Why does no one feel for us, O world? I am Yamen from Gaza, save me, O world, please do not
https://t.co/MyDSkjnHbJ

[chaotickat on bsky, Kat B (they) @chaotic_kat]

So frustrated right now.
Grandparents in town for a visit. Had the COVID talk again before they arrived. Thought we were on the same page. They took oldest out today & went to an INDOOR RESTAURANT to eat.

We JUST had an exposure scare. Infection rate here is 1 in 19.
FML

[Iglika Ivanova @IglikaIvanova]

BC United's proposed tax cut will do little for low-income BCers, many of whom already pay no income tax & give $2,000/yr to higher-income BCers (including millionaires!) while punching a $5.4 billion hole in provincial finances. This is a bad deal for BC. https://t.co/nG3bsR7UQ9

[Nikki Reimer @NikkiReimer]

Why I meant was that too many things are incomprehensibly bonkers, and I believe we deserve less bonkitude, as a society. Fewer bonks. We are all very tired.

[chaotickat on bsky, Kat B (they) @chaotic_kat]

@XianJaneway Amazing! 🤩

[chaotickat on bsky, Kat B (they) @chaotic_kat]

Seriously, how does a lonely, late-discovered autistic, with loads of friendship abandonment trauma, make real lasting and close friendships in the age of COVID?

I've lost too many friends over the last 4+ years. Most just faded away. The grief hits harder with every loss

[chaotickat on bsky, Kat B (they) @chaotic_kat]

TFW you're not sure if it's rejection sensitivity, or actual rejection.

Either way, it sucks.
I hate feeling like I have no close friendships, and questioning if my friendships are anything more than acquaintanceships.

[chaotickat on bsky, Kat B (they) @chaotic_kat]

It's been a rough freaking 8 months. I've lost touch with so many of you. I hope you're well. I miss the friends I made here 💜

[chaotickat on bsky, Kat B (they) @chaotic_kat]

After 8 months of being locked out, I have finally regained access to my account.

Anyone still out there?

[Plague Poems @PlaguePoems]

In the fifth year
of the pandemic
it’s too much to expect anyone
to sacrifice their holiday plans
for the sake of personal safety
or to help stop the virus’s spread
in the fifth year
of the pandemic
we are done making
personal sacrifices
instead we prefer
to sacrifice each other