ethan

sh/edrtwt - bmi 24.1 - minors dni - pathetic angry and filled with brainworms

[ethan @charleeleons]

This is spurred on by the fact that 1) I’m going to be cooking for myself for the first time ever, & 2) I just spent the last 4 months of my life in a dissociative self isolation spiral and I guess the way my brain thinks it can have control again is via obssesive restriction

[ethan @charleeleons]

I’m at this weird point in my life where I’m still technically disordered, but not in the same way anymore? I want to be muscular but I still feel the need to restrict like crazy. Like bulk/cutting but extreme. It’s like I’m just doing it for the love of the game at this point

[ethan @charleeleons]

@fatnssevrdeen There are adults on here, you just gotta go searching. I’m 21 if you would like to moot :)

[ethan @charleeleons]

bought a new scale and exercise watch for cοllege since i’m 10 hours away from home, got scale today and watch comes in on wednesday

[ethan @charleeleons]

my college has so much free food rn they want me to binge so bad

[ethan @charleeleons]

me now that i moved away to cοllege

[ethan @charleeleons]

@RabidVegas dude we’re both relapsing at the same time!

[ethan @charleeleons]

Anyways I finally moved over to bluesky i’m using the same username over there

[ethan @charleeleons]

I know it’s getting bad again when I re-download twittеr lmao. Anyways i’m back i can’t wait to keep not posting anything

[Salem ｡°⚠︎ @luvorxia]

does anyone else have an exact moment where they felt their disordered thoughts develop into an ed bc my final straw was then when the eva suits tightened

[ethan @charleeleons]

Anyway guys protip when fаstic asks to put notifications on your calendar don’t let it cause for some reason it put them on my FAMILY’S FUCKING CALENDAR instead of my personal one. Good thing my dads a health guy so I can just argue it was for that but now I’m embarrassed

[ethan @charleeleons]

@litteraI_trash congrats dude! normally when you have a prescription you’ll pick it up from a pharmacy every few months. you’ll probably get emails that say when its ready and give you instructions. i know that my place just mails me mine, i just have to fill out a little form online everytime.

[ethan @charleeleons]

i just want money to spend on unreasonably expensive safe foods is that too much to ask

[ethan @charleeleons]

good news: I finally got a jоb interview!
bad news: I have to wait two weeks for it

[ethan @charleeleons]

parents are out of town for a week! time to sleep in the living room, watch slеnderverse series on the big tv, and not eаt regular meals

[ethan @charleeleons]

its not letting me repost normally but uh. look at this please

[I’m done @mmy_wrists_hurt]

Trans masculine friends that are afab and want Phalloplasty do NOT cut on both of your arms and both or your legs, they can and will reject doing the surgery on you if your skin is too damaged. Personally I chose my right arm to be completely clean!

[ethan @charleeleons]

musiсal’s over i can go back to stаrving

[ethan @charleeleons]

@symphonicsick what the fuck i’ve been described perfectly