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[leo 🐢 @ramkcals]

haven’t been going to the gym and i’ve gained weight and i’m on my period right now so really i’m just the fattest flabbiest loser in the world !!! i look so awful like where did my muscle go???

[leo 🐢 @ramkcals]

i feel so fat right now i genuinely just want to r3l4pse so so so bad i can’t do this

[leo 🐢 @ramkcals]

a few days ago i jokingly told my boyfriend i don’t eat by myself because i wanted him to eat with me and for just a split second he seemed like genuinely sad ??? idk i probably laughed it off so hopefully he didn’t take it too seriously

[leo 🐢 @ramkcals]

i have a boyfriend and he’s the sweetest gentlest most wonderful boy ever !!!

[leo 🐢 @ramkcals]

because oh my goodness we spent time together outside of work for the first time the other day and i learned we are both clingy affectionate losers

[leo 🐢 @ramkcals]

would y’all smite me if i posted slightly suggestive thoughts on here,,, obviously nothing crazy because im not getting up to any of that stuff but just like about making out with my pretty boy or whatever

[leo 🐢 @ramkcals]

another year older and another year still dealing with this nonsense

[leo 🐢 @ramkcals]

so uhh the pretty boy actually does like me back !!!

[leo 🐢 @ramkcals]

we’re literally texting for hours and sending each other reels every day and talking about going star gazing and going on silly adventures together ??? like please does he like me or is this just like friendship or what ???

[leo 🐢 @ramkcals]

he’s so funny and pretty and i can’t tell if he’s flirting with me or if he just texts like that but oh my i fear i am down bad for this silly boy

[leo 🐢 @ramkcals]

turned my screen time limits off and immediately went from spending maybe an hour or so on insta to literally like five hours what is actually wrong with me

[leo 🐢 @ramkcals]

lowkey shooting my shot but calling him dude in the same sentence is this flirting or am i going crazy

[leo 🐢 @ramkcals]

so yknow how i just said i don’t have a crush on my coworker,,,, yeah we’re gonna pretend i didn’t just dream about holding his hand thanks

[leo 🐢 @ramkcals]

telling myself i don’t have a crush on my coworker while i’m giggling and kicking my feet when he texts me and way overthinking my replies

[leo 🐢 @ramkcals]

i feel like a junkie staring at pictures and videos of people cvtting in an attempt to try and stop myself from doing anything because i’m so close to a year clean

[leo 🐢 @ramkcals]

haven’t had a drop of alcohol in almost 5 months, i’m 11 months clean, and i’ve been attempting recovery for probably over a year by now yet those are still the first things i want to fall back to after even the smallest inconveniences?? the addict genes are kicking my butt guys

[leo 🐢 @ramkcals]

i love creating very specific situations for me to fall asleep in because i just get set up and i will fall asleep almost instantly but it makes it so hard to fall asleep anywhere other than my own room, especially with other people around

[leo 🐢 @ramkcals]

it would make my room look more organized and make it way easier to me to clean but it’s my little guys

[leo 🐢 @ramkcals]

how do i get rid of stuff when im emotionally attached to everything i own and its literally just uselessly sitting on my shelf but its related to a hyperfixation and i can’t bear the thought of getting rid of it

[leo 🐢 @ramkcals]

not sure if i’m more jealous or inspired

[leo 🐢 @ramkcals]

went to my cousins place for the first time and even the highest surfaces didn’t have a speck of dust???? you’re telling me two young adult men live in that apartment and it’s spotless????