but like i said before, i couldn’t go through with all of it. so now im kinda stuck. i cant go on like i have been and i cant stop everything and i cant just disappear for a few months to come back like nothing happened. i’m not sure what people do in these situations.
talking to nobody again but here’s a life update: i really wanna disappear. i would end it but i couldn’t do that to be honest. im selfish and i want the chance to come back if i ever feel like it. sometimes i consider just living outside and traveling on foot.
i figure i’d probably fall into some drugs though, and with the chance to go back to normal life that wouldn’t really work. most the people in my life i’m alright seeing once a month or so but there’s a few people i wanna see everyday. so that wouldn’t really work either.