besides, i don't know how to ask for help. so i just disappear and fix myself, then return once i feel better. some people think that i'm too aloof and being too distance from them, but that's just who i am and i badly want them to understand that.
i have no energy to argue. i’m okay with being misunderstood. i’m not going to keep repeating myself and i refuse to fix every little disagreement. everyone will not hear you, nor are they interested in hearing you and i’ve learned to be okay with saving my energy.
i usually deal with my own problems alone and i automatically distance myself from everyone once i feel sad and tired for some reason. i don't ask for help that often, even from my close friends, because i don't want to be a burden on them. ++
my biggest 🚩 is that i’ve normalised silent treatment when im not in mood for a talk. i don’t really know how to express my feelings especially when im sad and hurt. i only talk to myself in my head about how i feel all the time.