kia!

very public diary

[juju🌴 @jujubazofc]

Eu não teria que passar por isso se tivesse me matado aos 12

[𐙚 @cantlovedave]

when you try to explain your feelings, but its always turns into an argument and you turned into a bad person

[𝒥ℴ 𝜗𝜚 @venusianjo]

trying not to act like a horrible monster when my patience is tested and things don’t go my way

[Anii ! @iidiot_anii]

i feel disgusted being in my skin i want to rip my body apart

[kia! @chuuyacidal]

How do I move on i want to move on from everything

[kia! @chuuyacidal]

I feel like I have no right to be mad or upset about anyone

[kia! @chuuyacidal]

Sometimes I find myself growing a form of resentment for my mom then immediately feel guilty about it

[kia! @chuuyacidal]

But then again I don't think anyone would care if Im gone

[kia! @chuuyacidal]

I feel like no matter how hard I study I still end up below average

[kia! @chuuyacidal]

But why do I even try when I dont even have the will to live? Am I hoping the future gets better? Are the people that i think care about me the only thing stopping me from ending it all?

[jj ౨ৎ @jjsedtwt]

Honestly dying young would be the best option for me, i have no passion for any jobs in life, can barely handle alot of human interactions and need constant isolation to feel okay and it feels impossible to change that about myself no matter what I try, i hate being this way😭

[kia! @chuuyacidal]

It truly never gets better. Suicide is the only answer left for me.

[kia! @chuuyacidal]

Funny how I'm 20 and still feel like this

[kia! @chuuyacidal]

I know I cant have everything I want without putting in effort but it still fucking sucks

[kia! @chuuyacidal]

There's nothing to pity about. Im nothing but a selfish prick who deserves a death far worse than criminals

[kia! @chuuyacidal]

I hate feeling so much I hate feeling urge to just cry and pity myself all the time

[kia! @chuuyacidal]

Everyone moved on but I'm still here Im still stuck in my own hell

[kia! @chuuyacidal]

Every single inconvenience that comes my way makes me want to slit my throat

[yukio ⋆˙⟡ @7um1_shh]

If i wasn't such a pussy I'd probably be dead by now